
Philippians 4:11 Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content.
My STORY
I have known for awhile that I would need to write a bit about what has gone on
in my life and heart for a couple of years...
to make it shorter than longer....
will start at the beginning of a new era in our life together, my husband and I.
Two + years ago we sold our largish home to our daughter/sil...and their family. We wanted to downsize...with having fibromyalgia I just could not keep up. My house was a split level. My husband had totally remodeled the kitchen, given me more cupboards then a woman could ever want. I loved that kitchen...he would paint rooms for me....and my everchanging mind with colors.....
My husband has more energy than anyone I know. I am blessed.
After we moved out...we rented a duplex. It was lovely, 3 bedrooms, 2 full baths...
vaulted ceiling, fireplace and attached two car garage....
well after 2 months there we realized that the management of the area did not control noise and other things.
WE started looking for a place to buy.
My husband had been doing a very long commute to and from work for 7 years. We decided to get closer to his work even though it would mean not being as close to our granchildren. We thought of having a manufactured home put on small bit of property.... a deal had been worked out.......Well the next morning we were to go put a deposit on the home. Neither of us had a peace from the Lord about it......so we went to our salesman and explained to him our reasons(I won't go into them here)....
.God is so good..this man was a Christian and totally understood our situation.
Well, the salesman said to my husband. I have a SINGLE wide mobile home downtown in a beautiful park. It is older and it is a senior park. At that time neither of us was old enough to live there. We drove there and he was right, the mobile home park is beautiful and very well kept.
All I kept thinking is a SINGLE wide mobile home, you got to be kidding.
Ladies you and I know a single wide mobile home is not very large. We thought ,yes we will go see it....the moment we walked in....my sweet, diligent husband got the look of Home Depot Stars in his eyes...... Oh my goodness did this place need work....It was so ugly inside. So dated...so YUCK !!!!!!
Well we bought it.....and we moved into it..putting a large quantity of our belongings in storage.
It has not been easy.
In the three years we have been here...my husband has totally redone the whole inside. He has worked so hard....then...last summer he did vinyl siding on the outside...(my sweet daughter in law Gina spent days learning the art of siding here)my son Matt and son in law Mark..helped with some of the prework on the outside....it was HOT out too....my dh built a wonderful cover over my deck...he has done great landscaping. Our son in law has helped him put laminate flooring in...we have all new windows....the place is wonderful. As I type..he is off this week finishing the last room Believe it or not we have 3 bedrooms 2 bathrooms...You would NEVER recognize the transformation. I am learning to love my little house.
I am learning to be content.
It has, and is still a process.
Yet....I am writing to tell you...that for almost the first year or more.
I would complain about it, I would call it my hovel, the tube, the tin box....
some pretty ugly things coming out of my mouth.
I am embarrassed to tell you how many derogatory things I would say about this place...
yet my diligent husband of almost 36 years has kept working away at it....
I am saying all of this....to tell my husband publically...I am SORRY......please ladies...learn from me...
be content with what you have...
.most Americans think it is our right to all have big beautiful houses....
we have NO RIGHTS....
what we have is because of the Lord.
Most Christians in other countries do not live like American Christians...
Learn from me....appreciate what your husband provides...
my attitude has been horrible.
Life is so short.
In the past 4 years, my father, mother and younger brother have gone on to be with the Lord.
I have another younger brother that has brain cancer
. Appreciate all that people do for you.
In my home now....
I am learning to live with less....
but my house is still over flowing.
I am learning to organize creatively......
to be thankful even more for my husband....
I am working on not comparing myself to anyone else.
This is and is still a process
It is hard not to want what others have.
I see it all the time in blogland.
I want to be content.
I believe God honors my desire in this area.
Are you content?
Deby