This is MY BEST NEWS ever..it can be yours TOO
I have claimed for many years....approximately 40 or so....to be a Christian.I have gone to many different denominations and feel like I am FINALLY being
grounded in a Independent fundamental Baptist Church. I have been listening to preaching
with such conviction that a work had begun in my heart.
Something was missing....I knew the Bible, had walked many an aisle, knew the songs, the lingo,
even LEAD people to the Lord. I had deceived MANY and most of all myself. The conviction
had started.....with wonderful preaching from the pulpit at my church...from reading some postings on blogs,and other things....you know what....do you know what I KNEW, in my HEART...
"I WAS NOT SAVED"....I knew it....denied it....I knew that if I were to die, I could NOT tell you 100% that I was going to heaven. I would try to muster it up....I had to keep face with friends and most of all family.I had played the church game well, but I was NOT SURE....
Tonight after our evening service my beloved husband and I met with our Pastor....to find out where we would
fit in at the church and what our interests and desires were. I knew I could not leave there without sharing with my Pastor the struggles I was having in my heart. I KNEW I had never truly repented in my heart....and after many tears I prayed and asked Jesus in my heart....I asked HIM to forgive me for my sins, I thanked HIM for taking my sins on Himself for me.....I truly became BORN AGAIN and now I KNOW it....It was as IF something lifted off my heart that I foolishly having been carrying way too long. I , before tonight was sincere, but I have been sincerely WRONG...and the enemy has liked that.
To all of you whom I have deceived in saying the right words, etc...I would ask your forgiveness to pretending to be something I was not. And I would ask that you too would MAKE sure that you are saved. As we were finishing our time together I told my pastor that I felt like something lifted off of me and he sang that first line from the hymn *Burdens are lifted at Calvary*..
and indeed they were lifted for this 50 something lady
ALSO..to Mrs. B whose testimony has been part of this process and also Julie whose salvation post...also to the website Lehigh Valley Baptist church, other women who's testimony is so similiar to mine that have shared it with many others,and especially to my Pastor, Pastor Bob Reno I would say THANK you....I so appreciate your listening to the Lord's leading as you have all shared in what has been a few rough weeks for me.
I am so excited to finally KNOW in my heart....That I ,DEBY, am truly a Daughter of the KING....and am no longer playing the part.