A word fitly spoken is like apples of gold in pictures of silver.
Proverbs 25:11

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

a bit of realness



I don't write much about having fibromyalgia. At least, I hope I don't. I try to think,"it is a fact of life"....but lately...one of the symptoms ----side effects for me, has been the fatigue. Do you remember that first trimester of pregnancy?...or when you are recovering from a *bug*...and you WANT to do things, but you are just so pooped out...so tired...like the *spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak*....well that is what fatigue is for me. During revival the speaker talked and preached on THANKFULNESS....I truly am trying to THANK the Lord for this....WHY ? WELLLLLLLL.......glad you asked...this is the scripture he shared: 1 Thessalonians 5:18 In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you. ....what does EVERY THING mean ?....well that is easy...... EVERY THING....I am trying to thank GOD in just more than words...and trying to accept that which I can't change. Of course I work at doing *my part*...I am now off of SUGAR, white stuff...ie: breads, white rice.....but so often right now, I am just frustrated...my mind is tired, my body is tired, I do projects in my home in spurts--to include hitting one yard sale,instead of many.....grocery shopping is now shared with my beloved husband....when I have those great DAYS...yes...oh yes...I overdo....and it catches up with me...but it just feels so good to have those days...and I try so hard not to feel sorry for myself....so many people have it much worse....people I know personally......I am just wanting to learn to *BLOOM WHERE I AM PLANTED*....and for some time now, I have been planted in FATIGUE-LAND....and I want to be thankful, because for me, that would be, being obedient to God's WORD. This is a process, isn't it?...hope this ramble, makes sense?~~deby

27 comments:

Mrs. Rabe said...

Deby,

I never hear you complain about anything on your blog! I am sorry about the fibromyalgia and the fatigue. I pray that it gets better for you soon!

Thank you for sharing.

minpinmom said...

I understand the fatigue. The meds I take to control my bi polar sometimes just really wipe me out and it feels all I do is vegetate! It is frustrating on those days. I will keep you in my prayers.

Sarah Joy said...

Bless you-I am praying for you to have strength in this trial. Few people understand how debilitating chronic pain is, and how easily it can discourage. I've seen my dear mother struggle with it, and she's my heroine forever for her patience and determination to do her best and keep hope alive in the middle of it all.

Pam said...

It certainly is a process! So many of your descriptions could have been written by me! I haven't been diagnosed with fibro, but RA. I overdo on those good days! I rarely enter a store, grocery, Walmart, mall alone. When I do, it's only for short jaunts. I dream of once again being independent but try as you to bloom where planted! I do know others have it worse than I Deby. Thank you though for bringing home some of my thought processes. It helps knowing other Christian ladies battle with similar mind games as I do. I recently met a blogger, who is also my neighbor! She lives one and a half blocks from me. She has fibro and so I always think of you when she has a bad day. Love you and continue to share via the internet and do what you are capable of doing in your weakened body. God understands! I struggle at time, wondering what others must think of me! And sometimes I wish my newer friends could have known the old me! Before the crippling of joints and before the fatigue. We will continue holding each other up in prayers dear sister.

BECKY said...

Hi Sweet Deb! I'm so sorry you've been so challenged physically. Know that I'm praying for you!! I'm going to send you an email instead of taking up a bunch of space here!!

Love ya!!
Becky

HOPE said...

I've been fighting fatique for years...and finally a doctor RX me Prenatal vitamins...if I do not take these...see photo above!

they make a world of difference for me...however, as with you...I too have Fib. though my symptoms don't compare to yours...fatigue is everpresent. It is a fact of life health issue that we have to work with for each individual...a friend recently told me she HAD this..mm? and started taking Magnesium with calcium...made all the difference for her. I plan to try this myself...hope it'll work for me too.

Only the LORD knows...and as you said, in Everything give thanks...perhaps there is one out there who will read how you cope...WITH THE LORD! amen...

I think of you all the time Deby with this condition..and hope you are having good days.

HOPE~

LDH said...

Hi Deby, I wish you didn't have to deal with the fatigue but admire your desire to be thankful in everything.

Kindly, ldh

Becky K. said...

You are right to praise through the hard times. It is not easy to do but God is always Good and our circumstances don't change his worthiness of our Praise, do they?

Thanks for being real. We often need to be reminded that life is not always pretty photos and clean houses with perfection in every corner. That comes later!! Looking forward to that great day.

CONNIE'S THOUGHTS FROM THE HEART said...

I think you live that verse very well. You are a blessing to so many of us and we don't know the days that you are feeling really bad. I hope the days get easier for you and soon you will be able to do all that your heart desires. Hope this is a blessed day. connie

Deborah said...

I don't have a diagnosis of anything...other than my age... but I sure can relate to the fatigue...and having sciatica for the past month, the pain is exhausting! It's made it impossible to do much of anything, and that is so frustrating. It sure does make one thankful for family who steps in to help!

Rebecca said...

Dear Deb...

Sometimes I wonder why God allows us to experience things that cause us sooo much discomfort and pain. I know when I look back over my life...struggling to conceive, massive financial debt in my early marriage years, sickness of my oldest child, family issues...I realize I wouldn't have survived any of it if the Lord hadn't been carrying me.

My sweet neighbor's son, who is 28, was just diagnosed with MS. Seeing him suffer with an aggressive form of the disease make my heart heavy. Still I know that even though God allows suffering to come upon us His grace covers it all...

Thinking of you...loving you.

Rebecca

Mrs.Vicki said...

My heart is with you, as I too have fibro with IBS. I hate going to the store alone, but dh won't go with me, so I might stop more than once a week after work. Many times I have pulled into the parking lot and just pulled back out and went home. I have to admit I'm not so good at being thankful. Thank you for the challenge.

Abounding Treasures said...

Deby,

You are always such an encourager and I've never heard you complain here on your blog!

Your desire from your heart to thank the Lord for EVERYTHING is so evident from your various posts and it's never obvious when you're suffering the most :o)

Thanks for sharing a little of yourself and your struggles with this as it touches my life sometimes as well.

Blessings!

Angels Watching Over Me said...

Hi Deby, I am sorry you have such fatigue. I know exactly where you are coming from because my health issue is depression which also has the side affect of fatigue. My depression is a chemical imbalance so even though I have medicine, I still struggle from time to time when the meds no longer work, or I forget to take them a day or two in a row. My prayers are with you. I too try to be thankful even when I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. When you don't hear from me for a while it is usually because I am "down" Love & "Hugs", Karen

Maxine said...

Glad you know you can share your heart, and weariness, with us, Deby. Praying for your increased strength. You are a blessing to many. Remember that.

Cathy said...

Aw, Deby, I am sorry you are going through all that. Are you still off the caffeine? I can't have any either. I take a lot of medicine that I think makes me tired. Praying you will get better soon, dear ~

Hugs,
Cathy

Kristi said...

I'm sorry, Mrs. Deby! I'm glad you have the attitude of blooming where you're planted. That's not always an easy thing to do!

~Kristi

Lisa's Blessed A Latte said...

Very good attitude sis....I can testify that you are Blooming where you planted. Great post.

Love Ya....

Mary Isabella and Kiley too! said...

YOU ARE A Blessing to all of us!!!! Big hugs and prayers to you...m.

Tori said...

Oh I'm so sorry that you are suffering with the effects of this but what a great outlook you have.

Hope you get some relief from all this fatigue really soon.

HUGS

~Karen~ said...

Dear Deby,
I don't have fibromyalgia (that I know of!), but other health issues that take away my energy, too. I know what you're talking about very well. I'm also learning to live in the moment more than ever, and to appreciate God's will for my life. Sometimes that is a hard thing to do, but I repeat "Phillipians 4:13 I can do everything through him who gives me strength", when those days come.
Blessings and hugs to you today, and I will continue to pray for your health issues.

Persuaded said...

awww deby, i don't know how i missed this post...
you know my daughter amelia suffers from chronic illness- lupus, so i have some small sense of what you are going through. fatigue doesn't seem like a big deal, until you have seen someone suffer from such debilitating utter exhaustion. i'll be praying for you dear♥

Bellamere Cottage said...

Oh, Honey Pie.....

I sooooooooo understand! Try to relax and enjoy the days you feel well.....it's so easy to overdo, isn't it?

Big hugs!
Spencer

Tuscan Lady said...

Hi Deby,

I just found your blog and was intrigued by your profile. I have fibromyalgia as well. For so long I struggled with trying to find a cure and hating the way I felt. I have a 20 year old disabled son so I can't just take time to relax too often. There were days that I just felt like giving up. But, the Lord always brings 2 Corinthians 12:9 to my heart. It is the verse He gave me long ago when my husband and I struggled with why the Lord did not heal our son. "... 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.'" Now, I have come to a place where I can praise God and be thankful in spite of my afflictions. I am thankful for my *thorn in the flesh* because it makes me run to my Lord and lean upon Him. When I take my eyes off of Him I begin to backslide and feel sorry for myself, but thankfully those moments are becoming fewer and fewer as I mature in the Lord.

We have seen so many people come to Jesus, or mature in their faith, due to the silent witness of our son's faith. I can only hope and pray that my life, despite the fatigue and pain, is a blessing to those I encounter as well.

Thank you for your blog. I'll be popping in again soon.

Blessings,
Deborah (aka TuscanLady)

Becky said...

Oh, Deby....your ramble makes sense.

I'm sorry for your frustrations and challenges physically and emotionally, but you are handling the PROCESS well ~ one day, one hour, one step at a time.

And remember, your spirit can not be touched by the fibromyalgia....and your spirit is
AWESOME!!!

Blessings,

Becky

Jennifer said...

I've recently been tentatively diagnosed with fibromyalgia, too ... I've been trying some dietary changes which seem to help, but the tiredness doesn't completely go away. Trying to take it one moment at a time.

Myranda said...

Dogs fall asleep in some of the strangest positions...